Sunday, May 28, 2006 @ 1:26 PM
So Friday was Parent-Teacher Meeting. I didn't do as well as I expected and wanted to, and so I was quite disappointed. But the worse was when both my parents and teachers didn't believe I studied. Oh mans. I so wanted to just slip away from that scene of accusation. They thought all those times where I was out with my friends, I was fooling around. But no! I was studying with them! Then they started blaming the church for my bad results.
Gosh. I was very upset and angry. I really studied! And with my brothers and sisters! I got kind of angry, so I told them quite firmly, "If it wasn't for the church, I probably won't even bother to study!"
Ouch. I shouldn't have done that. Ahh. That was pretty rude and that just wasn't right. I knew I shouldn't have done that.
But well, it wasn't too bad. Because right after I said that, my teacher was quite speechless, and she started encouraging my mum to get to know my friends and to actually, well, go to my church. Woah.
But still, that was pretty bad. Glad God made a way and turn the situation better. But I'm sure I left that teacher an "impression". Ouch. Ahh. Yet and again, I failed. Rahh. God, You just got to help me.
Well, actually, I admit I didn't give all my best for my mid-year. There were times that I could choose to be hardworking and study, but I didn't and I gave in to my comfort zone. Oh well. That's a reminder from God. Well God, since You gently reminded me, then I shall be hardworking.
Yesterday's service was great. The praise and worship, the sermon. Woah. Deep touch from God. Yesterday was also the day where restructure took place, and also my first time attending Shirley's CLM. To tell you the truth, I'm quite "ahhhhh" about being a careleader. Actually I really don't know what to do. -.-' It was like, I all of a sudden became a CL. Rahh. Whatever the case, I'll strive to become the kind of careleader God wants me to be for the group. Hard. Seriously hard, but hopefully God will bring me through somehow.
Right now, I'm supposed to study for tomorrow's 'O' Level Mother Tongue Paper. But seriously la-
Chinese how to study?!